Alveda King and Patti Palmer |
But it came vomiting out of me that one spring morning after I began toying with the idea of using it to get through to the women we were sidewalk counseling. I thought, "there must be something in my experience that could tear down a few bricks from their walls here". Another friend, Melanie, volunteered to help me work it out with pen and paper. This I did over a few days, through tears and over many pages. It seemed odd to me that this singular trauma was now confined to about 5 or 6 typed pages, but there it was in all of its technicolor ugliness. I felt proud of my efforts. I completed the mission.
Or so I thought.
Then the bargaining began. Though you will be pleased to know that I do not hear voices, I did receive a prompting coming from someplace within me to read the testimony to others who may not know how abortion actually hurts women. I don't mind public speaking, but this was a rather raw subject and I wasn't quite sure I could muster the courage necessary to deliver it. I told the Prompter that if an opportunity arrived in Chandler (a galaxy far, far away from my home), that maybe I would consider it. Prompter - which I now recognize to be the 3rd Person of the Holy Trinity - responded with an irresistible opportunity much further away than Chandler.
Payson is located about 75 miles to the Northeast of Phoenix and this is what called out to me over Twitter through a dear soul named Deacon Tom Fox. He and his pro-life group wanted to know how to get more involved in pro-life ministry and had heard about the sidewalk counseling efforts being formulated here in Phoenix. He did not know, at that time, that I had an abortion story. I felt that I could trust this man and over a few phone calls we arranged what was to be the "almighty delivering of the abortion testimony"...in Payson. He's not even in my Diocese for Goodness sake! With testimony in hand and some other pro-life resources, I transported myself up to Payson a few summers ago and told my story to Tom, his wife, Dee and about 16 other virtual strangers. I blubbered through most of it. These patient, holy people do not realize what was to flow from that summer day in 2009.
I boarded my 737 bound for DC last Sunday, the newly released book, "Unplanned" by Abby Johnson in hand, thanks to my friend Sheila. I was off to the March for Life with 12 others from Phoenix Silent No More to tell my testimony in front the Supreme Court. "Is this for real?" I thought to myself. As I have mentioned before, it is hard for one woman to share her abortion story. But there were 11 of us that were equipped and flying here to do this. Something much more supernatural is going on.
Tanya, Rebecca, Patti, Linda, Brenda & Carol |
Getting my book signed by Abby |
Richard & Abby Johnson |
Wheels down in DC, I found my motley crew in the crypt church of the Basilica of the National Shrine of the Immaculate Conception. Fitting! Covered in Our Lady's Mantle, (you'll hear more about that later), there we were among 10,000 other pro-life faithful. St. Raphael is a very effective intercessor by the way. Thanks Candida :-)
From here on, the story gets Forrest Gumpish…
Viv, Monica, Linda, renda, Karen, Margie, Tanya & Debbi |
Debbi |
The next morning we ate breakfast at the Billy Goat Tavern across from our Washington Court Hotel. Cheapest breakfast near capitol hill, I’m certain. Many of us were dressed 4 layers deep with clothing, hats, gloves, scarves and mufflers. 3 of us, myself included, made the ridiculous commitment to stand on the Rally Stage holding our “I Regret My Abortion” signs. Ridiculous because it was only about 28 degrees and because we were to stand motionless for 90 minutes. This had about as much appeal to me as a blood draw but I did it because Debbi’s gentle gaze somehow penetrated my resistance with something that felt like – “this trip was a gift; let’s really show our donors that AZ is here” .
Karen O, me and "Alabama Kristy" |
So along with Monica, Karen O. and my new friend “ Alabama, Kristy”, I soldiered up to that rally stage. On the mall, in front of a sea of about 30,000 human beings, here I am – advertising the fact that I regretted my abortion. I do admit that I felt a bit like I was on an executioner’s block. “There’s no more hiding this. I have literally OUTED myself.” Was this a good idea? What would my parents have thought? My brothers? If there was any discretion about this part of my life before, consider it evaporated. Actually, I think moments like this might be referred to as defining moments, but I’ll do some more thinking about that.
And then I relaxed. 4 Cardinals joined us on stage with the March's founder Nellie Gray and prayed. They greeted us as they passed by and thanked us for our courage. Wa? They were thanking us! How amusing! A small crowd of empty chairs was behind me; they were eventually filled by 60 pro-life members of the freshmen class of congress. Led by Eric Cantor I found it increasingly difficult to follow Georgette’s simple yet explicit direction to remain statuesque. We met many of our elected officials as they filed around us to make it to their microphone moment. One guy (I forget his name and district) actually snapped a pic of Karen and I and told us to look for it later on Facebook! Jean Schultz (R-OH) introduced us to Trent Franks (R-AZ) when she learned of our impressive AZ number. “Hey Trent – here’s some of your people”. Trent was eager to greet us and invite us up to 2253 Raeburn for a reception later that afternoon. And it went on and on. And it did, literally. Give a politician a microphone, and they will use it. Give 60 of them a chance to speak….and you’ll turn a 90 minute rally into a rally-a-thon in good order.
The March was scheduled to begin at 1:30pm. It was now 2pm and we were still on stage. I looked behind me and happened to notice a perplexed Georgette gazing at the March which was already underway. Oh my...we are supposed to be at the front of that March. Off we flew, down the steps, across the grass and over to the growing hoard of folks. Run Forrest Run!! What I describe next is nothing short of a miracle...we had to snake our way into the Marchers and make it a city block (a really, really long way) to meet up with the rest of our SNM group. This, all so that we will make it to the Supreme Court Steps to give our testimony: THE REASON WE FLEW HERE TO BEGIN WITH.
Tanya, Carol and Viv |
Margie, Rudy, Karen O, David, Monica |
By the time we reached our group. We defined our next task as "Syncopation 101". To anyone who has ever marched in a marching band, you will appreciate the word "cadence". It was lost on most of the group save for one or two of us. The important part to understand was that by the time we reached Constitution Avenue we determined that the only way to stay UNIFIED was to link arms, chant and pace our steps with the chant. So as we chanted WE WILL BE we stepped SILENT NO MORE step. WE WILL BE (step) SILENT NO MORE (step). It worked. Before ya know it, we were joined by the cheering crowd as we made our turn and stood between the Capitol Building and The Supreme Court. It was unity that made our voices heard. The same unity that Cardinal DiNardo mentioned in his homily on Sunday night.
And to me, this was the most glorious moment. It was hard not to hold back the gush of emotion that I encountered right then and there. The crowd parted like the red sea and they gave way to all of us to speak our truth. We made our way to the podium where another degree of freedom set in as we allowed the words to flow ceaselessly from our lips. Every one of us - beautifully and eloquently - told our stories. We were Silent No More...
Tanya
Father Frank and Georgette Forney
Janet Morana and Karen
Me, Monica, Richard, Tanya, Brenda, Linda Margie and Karen O.
Monica
Richard & Tanya
Brenda, Margie and Karen O.
Patti and Brenda |